On a mission to tame my immaturity i have come across the sins i am committing daily.The best or worst(i dunno what really) part is that it makes me shameful when i reflect on my sad acts. I have been realising what i need to understand to keep myself at peace. My mind is not stable most of the time, i'm in a search for stability but this stability i need isn't what the world knows but its the simple truth. Believing that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life.
When i'm down what i want is somebody who cares with me and thats not possible at most circumstances.
What i always fail to see here is the one help i need thats the Holy Spirit now i'm blind to this fact most of the time when i need him and yet don;t know hes there. Now this situation where i know deep inside hes there for me but my mind can't seem to swallow whole this truth, i did a tiny observation and realised that my lack of communication/prayer with God is why my mind can't go ahead with what i know deep in.
Prayer is not a ritual, shouldn't be done out of compulsion but its a simple talk or a personal conversation with the one who understands you really well. I like to picture my praying as the surrender of a restless child who just never learns till he falls. But once you realise what made you feel empty you never want to let go of that beautiful comforter. When we ignore the Holy Spirit its like when you got some new books you put the dictionary you got first that helped you to read and understand in the bottom most shelf because you feel like a scholar and gradually piled more books and stuff on it but later when you need it, you need to take off all the you piled on it and lo its there.
Thats what happens, dust covers the spirit within which is willing but our worldly flesh just doesn't realise and when we do realise, it needs one or more brushings to get hold of what is your dear need.
When i'm down what i want is somebody who cares with me and thats not possible at most circumstances.
What i always fail to see here is the one help i need thats the Holy Spirit now i'm blind to this fact most of the time when i need him and yet don;t know hes there. Now this situation where i know deep inside hes there for me but my mind can't seem to swallow whole this truth, i did a tiny observation and realised that my lack of communication/prayer with God is why my mind can't go ahead with what i know deep in.
Prayer is not a ritual, shouldn't be done out of compulsion but its a simple talk or a personal conversation with the one who understands you really well. I like to picture my praying as the surrender of a restless child who just never learns till he falls. But once you realise what made you feel empty you never want to let go of that beautiful comforter. When we ignore the Holy Spirit its like when you got some new books you put the dictionary you got first that helped you to read and understand in the bottom most shelf because you feel like a scholar and gradually piled more books and stuff on it but later when you need it, you need to take off all the you piled on it and lo its there.
Thats what happens, dust covers the spirit within which is willing but our worldly flesh just doesn't realise and when we do realise, it needs one or more brushings to get hold of what is your dear need.
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