When pain is pleasure

In Acts21 Paul's dedication and love for Jesus is shown. When i read it i was amazed by the boldness he and no hesitation at all. If you look back at Paul's life, its really wonderful how he changed by that event. It is written that after he was blinded he didn't eat for few days(till Ananias came and prayed).
I couldn't help but think what must have been going through him at that certain period of time, he would have been repenting or realising the truth. What ever happened whats good is he didn't let his past acts affect him, he just moved on the right way when it struck him.

Everyone goes through some situation or another where you just can't help but get worried and the sad part is all that happens is the worrying. Instead just pray or ask God 'can this burden be taken away  but  let your will happen, all i need is you by my side to help me through'. This way you won't be commanding God to take it away but asking if theres a way.

Another wonderful thing to do when your in trouble is to praise God for what ever he has given you, even your crazy situation. Trust me you can feel the peace even if those mountains start closing in.
Theres always a way out, for me its through God.

Its written in the Bible, the disciples praised God for the suffering they had to go through. Now thats what we the disciples need to do.

Face the battle & it will be fought.

A nice cozy home, the perfect job, a life where i get to do what i want and only people who please me around..this is my imaginary ideal life. Imagine if life was like this how everyone would be, you wouldn't be living life.
Every time i have some problem with somebody, i keep wishing if i was away from all the buggers and people who ruin things you want to do, i would be the happiest person. But thinking close to the topic i think this is life, were you need problems and obstacles and no its not my idea, i have been inspired from the Bible to live such a life. It helps you not give up in life. Living with people who don't have the view you have is difficult but  trying to not be the black sheep here is a good way to live.

Right now if anybody would ask me sincerely whats up, i just want to scream out, theres so much hurt packed in i just want to run away. I don't feel like i can face it but there was this vision that i read in a book, it came to my mind...'a ladder was joining the sky and earth and there are clouds blocking you sight after a certain level. people were climbing up and after they disappeared beyond the clouds they would just fall down and the crowd waiting to climb would scatter in panic.Now it was the narrators turn to climb, he was above the clouds and couldn't see anything but  still was determined too climb. As he kept moving he saw a tiny light ahead, it was getting brighter and bigger as he got closer. Then he remembered he was on a ladder and just observed what was around, the dark clouds freaked him and he was about to stumble but just thought of the  light and looked ahead and he was fine..lo'   What this vision tells us is to focus on God not your problem, we get problem as we get closer to God , he is preparing us for the purpose we are to accomplish here for him. Facing our daily problems is like going an army training camp before the war.

My effort right now is to take everything that comes my way wholeheartedly and i hope to do that.

Let your judge be wise..don't judge

What can we get out of quenching our lust, worldly desires? more fuel for the burning pride and just temporary happiness or what ever that mean good feeling is.
Most of the humans or at least the people around me and yes myself have this really mean habit of judging people just like that. Now the thing is that what right do we have to do that, its more like a moving cat with a bell around its neck complaining about the noise made by the other cats.
This is exactly what we do..One of the things i detest is the hypocrite in me, which is one of reasons why i write here..so i try my best to be an example of what i write and it pokes me when i do otherwise.
The judge within you won't let you judge others and condemn  them when you yourself had seen that thorn in your life. I don't mean if a murder has been done you let murderer free from the actions of law, i'm talking about our daily scenes when make us gossip and hurt others.

We need to be examples in this world not of dominating power or accomplishment of selfish needs that took you to heights of luxury and boosted you pride, but of the greatness that comes out of simple values from your conscience and heart. Being the terrible humans we are, we definitely deserve to be struck by lightning( some word or action of ours deserves wrath) but the loving and merciful God, our creator never wants to see us hurt, then how do you think it would be to him when we hurt each other by our acts.

All of us want to be loved, it is a genuine and true desire from your heart even if you don't know. So just keep radiating and know that you are always being showered with the grace and love to do it the way you were created to. It never hurts to be a blessing, even though it does you will enjoy it..theres a joy that lifts you in those hard moments and thats the power of the grace  poured on you.
Just ask for it and its yours, its that simple with our God, you don't need a ritual or some difficult way to get to him. You will go through difficulties  when you start getting close to the Almighty Lord but that a preparing ground for you and every situation you face you can overcome. No matter whats happening around you all you nee to do is just stand in front of the mountain and he'll move it for you. Thats the amazing grace that guards us.

The Need than want

On a mission to tame my immaturity i have come across the sins i am committing daily.The best or worst(i dunno what really) part is that it makes me shameful when i reflect on my sad acts. I have been realising what i need to understand to keep myself at peace. My mind is not stable most of the time, i'm in a search for stability but this stability i need isn't what the world knows but its the simple truth. Believing that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life.

When i'm down what i want is somebody who cares with me and thats not possible at most circumstances.
What i always fail to see here is the one help i need thats the Holy Spirit now i'm blind to this fact most of the time when i need him and yet don;t know hes there. Now this situation where i know deep inside hes there for me but my mind can't seem to swallow whole this truth, i did a tiny observation and realised that my lack of communication/prayer with God is why my mind can't go ahead with what i know deep in.

Prayer is not a ritual, shouldn't be done out of compulsion but its a simple talk or a personal conversation with the one who understands you really well. I like to picture my praying as the surrender of a restless child who just never learns till he falls. But once you realise what made you feel empty you never want to let go of that beautiful comforter. When we ignore the Holy Spirit its like when you got some new books you put the dictionary you got first that helped you to read and understand in the bottom most shelf because you feel like a scholar and gradually piled more books and stuff on it but later when you need it, you need to take off all the you piled on it and lo its there.
Thats what happens, dust covers the spirit within which is willing but our worldly flesh just doesn't realise and when we do realise, it needs one or more brushings to get hold of what is your dear need.

Deaf to negative

There are always times when all i want to do is change people around me, i have been sick of all this complaining  around...only if i could just yell at them and get things my way! and stay happy forever!!

That is what my immature mind concludes always but i do know otherwise too, a way which is peaceful, might hurt us initially but the joy that comes from this withstanding is amazing. when that joy hits you you know that was what was missing in your life.

There is a stage in life when everything seems so meaningless and your very existence is questioned by you.
Now this phase i would say is a natural chance to find the real you, the person you where made to be.
Sadly not always does it come out to you the way it was meant to but worldly fog keeps us from the true vision.

What we need to know is don't get influenced by the world around you. Its the dark stuff thats influencing the ages in disguise. It does hurt when people judge you by the standards of the world but what is it to us we do what that peace in our mind gives us, not deliberately hurting anyone and just what meant to be good for humankind.

Treat people around you the way you want to be treated by them...but still always keep in mind not everyone might react well, some might never thank you, hurt your feelings but we don't know whats in their mind something must be hurting them( from past or just something) so just be good no matter what.
Let giving be your policy no matter what. Its always been like that from the true heroes whether its life or something simple but yes be wise before you jump.

We ought to remember that all our changes come from the one who never changes.

sheep in humans

Been awhile since i have been noticing the sheep in me..sheep is not mentioned here as the calmness or anything like that but the irresponsible, absentminded and yes ignorant person that i am.

Now i don't mean to insult the animal sheep but we are referred to as sheep looked after by the shepherd.

It never struck me until i had read elsewhere that  the sheep and us humans connect in certain character like we always end up in some trouble, helpless and all that happened because of our acts.

Now i mastered in the sheepishness that of reacting without thinking, i call it me reflex reaction on behalf of which most my hurts and dark sides grew. I react to a situation without reflecting why, who and when.

This went on repeating for days till i decided 'thats it, i gotta get out!' 

What motivates me to change from my unwanted actions is always Jesus my best friend, HES always amazed me and yes

i know i'm that silly sheep always but he loves me no matter what and the best part is hes not dumping you if you don't change now but gives you time and teaches you through the process and even better you never know till you reach a point and you just realised that you don't make it an issue when someone complains about you or hurts you. And eventually all my credit goes to the Holy Spirit for always being my guide.

We need a shepherd to guide and care for us and exactly what we have all have is him, just realise it.

Amazingly wonderful flame

Many the population rejected and hurt

but not a care to the proud winners,

they proud of what, their selfish ambitions

they ground for more, jealous and addictions;

But the hurt and rejected have hope,

a candle awaits oxygen in their darkness,

only just breath the li'l  they can

and the flame will brighten the inside 

and no blame will claim the outside.

But the proud have hope too,

drench the pride with humility

as a bride to humanity,

the day will come ring the world

and eternally sing the peace.

  

What more do we need when we have the acceptance of our creator. Hes the only that loves us the way we are, he doesn't care about our weakness and never complains about our acts and ways.

Hes truly remarkable to love this huge sinner that i am. I deserve none of his blessings yet he showers them on me. I lay my life for him and glorify his name for every second in my life from when i was born till now and its goes on and on. His glory is brighter than the sun, the only beam that makes me want to live everyday. Amazing God, adore him loads!!

Trust why?

Aren't all the fights and quarrels always related to trust? Why is it so hard to trust people?

What usually happens is you end up trusting people you shouldn't have or you don't trust those you need to.

Its a sad shame to mankind how our foolishness, well not that word then i would say we have fixed in our minds what is ultimate which this blind world  thinks is the ultimate for us being here or they don't have a reason  at all. What people think they gain from their worldly acts is an illusion which lasts really temporary.

From the beginning humans kept breaking the trust of God, but we do have people mentioned in the book who always cherished God above their lives and i say their lives would be the most meaningful and beautiful lives lived including Jesus Christ. I never find words to talk about Jesus, hes truly wonderful and amazing. The gospel of John i feel shows deeply about Jesus in another perspective making it my favorite gospel. All the gospels talk about Jesus life on earth in different perspectives and all lead you to the same conclusion and wonder on how beautiful God is, what hes done for us is truly something to be boasted around the world and i pray the trumpets be blown. If anybody needs our trust i say God needs it, its amazing when you just trust him no matter what.