Strength for the race

Jesus, please don't run so fast
i can't keep up(with this weak heart);
Seems like everyone's ahead of me
and i feel like i'm nowhere today.

i doubt i can finish this race,
how much further can i run

feeling like a dry leaf crushed;
i can't see clear, there's so much in the way.

Thinking of You, as i run i said "even if i loose my way, 

promise me Jesus You'll come back for me."
Then i heard this voice behind me,
"All those promises I gave you, I meant them from My heart."
You were always behind me, making sure i still run for the finish line.

All those bruises from the falls i had, it hurts,
Thought it'll get me to disqualify..
But i heard You say "I just want you to still keep moving towards our home,

 Remember I am the first and the last."

Don't let me forget Your words,
that i heard when i was smiling with You;
Please help me remember them,
even in my tears.

Humbled i'm still trying to finish this race,
i see hope as i glance back at You,
to catch Your smile as i run ahead;
All the obstacles overshadowed by Your grace and mercy now.

                        'However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to 

                 finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—                   the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.'

                                                                                       - Acts 20:24

Always with us..

i really wanted to climb up that mountain,
thinking i could talk face to face with You there.

i was planning to take a boat into the waters,
so i could be alone with You over there.

When i looked up to the sky , i was
jealous that the stars and clouds could maybe feel You always...
Cause Jesus i wanted to see Your face right then;
Jesus i wanted to know Your heart right away;
And Jesus i wanted to feel Your love once again.

In the midst of all the restlessness,
You show me that i can see Your heart in every humble deed i come across,
And Your good news when spoken out it's an overflow of Your love.

And You always amaze me with this peace i never understand; 

Even when my head lays low, knowing that the times i surrender are fewer than the times i was faithless.

Still You hold my hands, i feel Your kind smile and i know Your telling me..
"I will never leave you nor forsake you.
We'll make it home together."

To grasp how wide, high and deep is God's love - Ephesians 3:17-19

All for Heavenly Father

Jesus,
here i am
i'm giving You my heart;
Can You keep all my heart forever,
So You'll be my only treasure.

i'm letting go of every gem
i tried to keep,
i know You are all i need.

You are so beautiful,
You fill every vaccum in me,
with Your beautiful heart.
With some pain and tears,
You give me so much joy and love.

Thank You Lord, Life's so beautiful to see through Your eyes.
Every detail chiseled to be a reflection of You.

Whisper in the maze

Please help me BE STILL and
 KNOW YOU ARE GOD,
i want to hear You again.

Struggling to smile and
hiding  all my failures;
can't figure how to get back in line.
That's when i closed my eyes and remembered
i MISSED YOUR WHISPER.
IN THE MIDST OF THE WORLD

Fearing the storms,
my life seems a big mess;
feel so helpless sunken in despair.
That's when i knelt down and remembered
i MISSED YOUR WHISPER.
IN THE MIDST OF MY WORRIES.

i turn to You now, it's all so clear.
i hear Your gentle whisper
Your promises, it's all i need to hear in all of the noise.
Let the world hear me shout out Your whisper!

God's gravity

i try to jump off Your hands,
from fear of a narrow path;
but when i open my eyes i see you are with me always..
It's Your gravity..keeps bringing me back

That time i jumped with all that weight,
feeling like thrown away;
but i saw You pulled me stronger leading through the path,
leaving all that weight to stay..
It's your gravity..keeps bringing me back

You bring me to earth when i'm flying too high
and yet show me the sky; to remember Your plan..

It's God's gravity..that love, hope, care and everything that's You my God!

FULLNESS in emptiness

‘What is it Lord to just trust you’..when all that was hoped to be just crumbles down , when  people you love hurt you, when time seems to be running ahead of you, when it seems so hard to smile.                                                                                                                                                       

When all that rejection and pain are like thousand knives piercing into the heart, what can I do but just lay there and let those stabs be?   There have been times I have closed my eyes hoping to see a miracle when I open them, but I didn’t get it..But I don’t get it because His thoughts and ways are not like ours, they are great that our worldly minds can never perceive.

When sorrow overcomes life, I have always wanted to be in my own garden of Gethsemane where I can pour out to my Heavenly Father and have angels to strengthen me..but not always do we get to find a cave to take refuge in. That doesn’t leave us without a place to rest..we always have our hiding place in Christ, where the Holy Spirit gives us strength and thirst to drink that cup and say  ‘Let your will be done .’

When we hide in our Christ  we start knowing that the relief and healing we get in our hearts, when He removes those knives is beautiful and  we see that the points that were pierced was that pride, jealousy, self-centered, hatred and all those things that made us less like Christ. He  lets it be pierced and heals those wounds by giving us part of His heart..

And yes He definitely knows better than anyone the pain you go through because He went through it,  not with reason to suffer but a choice He made to keep us in His arms forever.

God will help us to look at Him and see that we don’t need answers to all our doubts, but that His powerful love with grace fills every emptiness in us. He is our fullness..we may have nothing yet we posses every thing..because of Him.