Anger, an emotion considered as a strength in this world
because of the power it seems to add in a person. But what really is a strength
is being able to become slow to anger.
‘An
angry man stirs up dissension, and a hot tempered one commits many sins.’ -Proverbs
29:22
The outburst of anger will always lead to a painful
consequence for someone. The fear caused to someone else because of your anger
is not something to be proud of, there is some peace lost there.
Short
and bad temper has put me in many sorry states from childhood, shouting at
people, kicking walls, throwing things used to be my common acts then. Never
realized I was a prey of uncontrolled anger.
As
years passed by realised showing out anger always wasn’t a very good thing,
slowly i started taking off temper with
pens by scribbling on paper till the scribbling tore it.
After I became a Christian, I started realising my issues
with anger. Started learning from my mistakes and slowly i stopped reacting
less in temper, and sure enough my friends noticed it too eventually.
‘Everyone
should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for mans
anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.’
-James 1:19,20
Then becoming slow to anger
became an easier thing with the help of the Holy Sprit.
As I moved on, God’s plan in my life needed me to go
through little wildernesses here and there, something we all go through by
which God teaches a lot to us.
Anger, something I thought i had learned to be slow at..started
taking over my life that I found it better that I never existed.. not able to
accept life for the way it is, I started getting angry with God. This anger
grew that I wasn’t able to pray well, even thank God. This continued that I
would talk to God with anger and end every conversation asking Him to strike me
with thunder.
But like His word tells us nothing can separate us from
His love, my anger wouldn’t stop His love for me. The devil used this opportunity to grow guilt with
thoughts that I have sinned beyond limits and so never can be a faithful
servant of God again.
But the Holy Spirit caused me to confess and get help.
Repentance and prayer backed with the word of God showed me that God loves me
so much that my iniquities were overlooked, what Jesus Christ did for us is to get
us back in His hands and He would never let us out of His sight..
We may have to go through those wilderness which will
lead us to our real home, where we long to be. Strength may seem to fail as you
walk through that heat, but we are not out of His sight, we have His shoulder
to lean on, His cup that never goes dry and best of all His love that never
fails.
‘And
this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and
depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be
pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of
righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of
God.’
-
Philippians 1:9-11
